I’ve done many condemnable things in the past. I was deeply self-centred and selfish. I was thoughtless, careless and ruthless. I made many people suffer from my actions and perhaps with my thoughts.
I spent many years punishing myself, consciously and unconsciously. I made myself suffer, probably more that I had made anyone else suffer before.
One day, helped by many wise masters that I had the instinctive wisdom of surrounding myself with, I realized that, paraphrasing Robert Holden, http://www.robertholden.org/
It is because the world is so full of suffering
that my happiness is a daily duty.
It is because the world is so unfriendly that my smile and as much kindness as I can muster, are a duty.
It is because the world is so full of war
that my peace of mind is a gift
It is because the world is in such despair
that my hope and optimism are a duty to my children and all my fellow human beings.
That is my daily atonement.
Most of us will rush to answer, “NO!”
I have been watching the drama, Humans, on TV. One of the androids says, “I am programmed to feel pain.”
I think, in many ways we have been programmed also by our parents, society, education and upbringing, to behave, respond and react, in ways that often cause us pain.
The reasons might appear valid: for some, karma; for some bad luck; for some, age and the decline in looks and health it represents. Sometimes there is nothing we can do but be patient and endure.
In my personal experience, very often all we need is the determination to let go of people, or resolve situations; change attitudes and find the right cure, remedy or palliative even for physical problems.
Simply, to love and accept ourselves with all our quirks and flaws, can work as the best remedy for most challenges we have to face.
I have spent a lifetime un-programming myself from painful childhood and youth experiences and learning to love myself. I seem to be doing a pretty good job since I do enjoy my life and my circumstances.
I hope freedom of choice, will always allow us to qualify as humans.
Arthur: “What is the best thing for being sad?”
Merlin: “To learn something.”
From 1967 script for Camelot’s Film by Allan Jay Lerner based on T. H. White’s “The Once and Future King”.
In my opinion and experience, also the best thing for growing old the right way up!
I reckon I have known my life purpose since I was about seven years old. It is the reason why I am, sing, write, talk…
Most of the time, I feel a bit embarrassed telling people what it is, but there wouldn’t be a purpose for this post if I didn’t mention it. It is, to do my bit, to the best of my abilities, for the welfare of mankind.
However, far too often I find myself questioning and trying to combat my selfishness and my forgetfulness of my life purpose, particularly when I hear of people who have got not only a purpose, but whose actions fit that purpose.
I hope you have discovered or created a purpose for your actions. It is like having a light in the depth of night.
May my writing somehow inspire you or help you in some way… just because that is my purpose.